Hello Nico - 接下来如何 歌词翻译

Nobody can predict their future
and know who will love you or who you will love.
And then the moment when you decided your next step
will turn into what kind of color in the sky.
I though that I won't love someone anymore.
I was dark everywhere when I turned off the light.
I looked like a sweater without any emotion
and gave it to someone who feel cold.

I had to wait the moment until I started to feel tiredly.
And then I forget which door I could exist when I was tired.
Who could teach me how to become cruel?
I didn't be ruthless in the beginning when I wasn't cruel enough.
I always felt reluctant to someone who loved me.
I couldn't bear to see his suffering. How could I deny it?
Someone who I loved made me be intolerable.
and then I couldn't have the one who I would be falling love with.

I made some stable life deliberately.
But it became a broken sculpture.
How did I know that a puppet would become a human one day
and he had been learned how to love people.
I wanted to return back to my simplicity from the beginning.
I had been pure, but I made it dirty by myself.
It would be falling down all of dust after a heavy rain,
everything would be restarted again and become clear.

I had to wait the moment until I started to hate myself.
And then I knew how to face myself honestly.
I shouldn't be forgiven like this way.
It's true that people had made selfish choices for themselves.
I still felt reluctant to someone who loved me.
I couldn't bear to see his suffering. Even if he was tired of being loved.
I wouldn't be falling love with the one who I loved anymore.
And then how could I tell him my love if I couldn't love him anymore.

未来没人能够预测
被谁喜欢 又喜欢谁呢
而下一步决定的那一瞬
转成怎样的天色
以为从此就不会爱了
黑色 我关上了灯
当自己是无情绪的毛衣
谁冷 就给谁了

非得等到自己也开始感觉累了
累了 却忘了出口是哪扇门
谁能教我该如何变残忍
残忍 却是开始那刻说得还不够狠
爱我的人我总是舍不得
舍不得看他痛著 怎么说出否认
我爱的人我变得要不得
要不得我爱的人

刻意地制造一些些安稳
却成弄坏的雕刻
怎知道木偶有天变成人
学会怎么爱了
想回到原本的单纯
白色 是自己弄脏的
下一场大雨掉一身灰尘
重新 变透明了

非得等到自己开始讨厌自己了
才懂得怎么诚实面对自己想要的
是不该就这样被原谅了
说真的谁都曾为自己做出自私的选择
爱我的人我还是舍不得
舍不得看他痛著 即使被爱得疲倦了
我爱的人却变得爱不得
爱不得 要怎么说出我爱上你了